When I was a child, studied in elementary school,middle and high middle school, even in university, I studied very hard, compare to what I can do now. I did not take any weekends, never sleep before 00:00, spent 16 hours in school or in front of the desk on studying. I felt happy about that life. I complained, of course, even very often, but I never give up working harder. Although my rank in my class is getting lower and lower, I always thought I am good, I still have potential.

 

Then I went to ITP, where I first have the right to deal with my time by myself.  Then I start to think I also need weekend to have a rest, I do not want to work in the evening, although I did not do that. I heard people in Europe do not work so hard, they have the whole weekend, and working after 18:00 is not eve allowed by law in some countries. So when I got the offer from Europe, I thought I will enjoy my life.

 

But I found I can not finish my task on time, alwasy. Until my supervisor told me we need to work at least for 70 hours per week if we want to do some nice work in Science, I just know, what is the problem about. I am too lazy here. I go to my wife's place very often, on the train to there, I can see the students studying on the train very often, they are afraid of awasting even one minute, and this is totally opposite to my impression I got before I came here. It is the first time I found I am so scared when I notice I still need to work in the weekend and in the evening, I can not imagine how to survive in that kind of life, which I have done for about 20 years. Maybe I am old, I am becoming coward now.

 

I am used to confused why it is so hard for our country to catch up with western developed countries even if we have so many people working very hard in their field, now I know the answer, and it is quite easy: people here are also working hard.

 

Come on! For our country!

 

 

记得上学那会儿，自己是很刻苦的，周末在做题看书，晚上也在做题看书，十二点之前很少睡觉，到现在我还清楚的记得当初央视首播《水浒》的时候我是以多大的意志力忍住不看电视剧而去看书的。还有准备物理竞赛那会儿，整个暑假我都没有休息过，全身心的投入到竞赛试题上，却也不亦乐乎。这种刻苦的劲头，我一直坚持到大学，我还记得大家晚上扇着吊扇等着传达的老大爷十一点半来自习室用纯正的济南话喊上一声：到点咧~！后来上研究生之后，也有保安在十二点的时候去办公室来催，但那时，大家大多是在看电影，聊天，很少有人是在工作了。不过我大部分时间都是在实验室度过的，由于被实验绑架，所以不得不晚上也工作，甚至通宵工作，周末也工作。可是那时我就在不停的幻想，要是能周末毫无负罪感的休个周末，完上也不用工作（顺便提一下，我们当时的组会都是在晚上的），该有多好！所以后来确定要来欧洲的时候，我想，我的苦日子终于到头了！

 

听说欧洲人工作极为不努力，周末都是雷打不动的，晚上是绝不加班的。我来之后，也确实身体力行了很一段时间，可是我发现工作我总是不能及时做完，来了一年，也没有什么像样的结果出来。直到后来老板告诉我，要想真正的科研上做出点像样的工作来，一周没有至少70小时的工作时间，基本是不可能的，我才看到，我表现的太懒了。

其实德国人很多工作还是很努力的，因为去老婆那里的缘故，经常会作火车，在火车上我经常看到有学生在看文章，有的没有座位，甚至会坐在地上复习功课，看到他们，我仿佛想起自己小时候打吊针也会坚持学习的感觉来。那种曾经如此习以为常并且引以为豪的生活学习作风，如今想起来，竟然让我有些害怕了，我第一次发现我的冲劲在一次次的挫折中减弱了，我开始变得软弱，失去信心，害怕接受挑战，害怕充满压力的生活环境，不能忍受艰苦的生活，我在变老么？我头一次感受到我快三十岁了，头一次对年龄的增长产生了忧虑。

 

以前，我总是很奇怪，为什么我们的雇员，研究人员数量那么大，工作那么刻苦，我们却很难赶超西方发达国家，现在我才明白，答案其实很简单，因为人家工作也很努力。

 

各位，再加把劲儿吧，为了我们的祖国！（有时候发现这句从小就喊得口号却是所有支撑自己的动力中最有力量的一个）

 

下面的照片就是在火车上学习的一个学生，各位，欧洲人也很努力的：

I became addict to second-hand stuff these days. Only because it is cheap.

 

Seveal years ago, I did not even want to touch a thing used by other people. That is because I still lived as a student and I know I can take everything back to home finally. But now, we have founded our own family here and will go back in several years which means we will have to left most of our things here. If we buy new one, like we spent 400 Euros on a TVset, we will lost at least 300 when we leave because you can not sell a second-hand TVset with a price higher than 150 Euros.

 

My wife does not like this, I can understand this. I wont make my life full of second-hand stuff, like I will never use a second-hand underware. But for something, like bike, lamp or something like this, it is OK. honestly, sometimes, I even found I became addict to second-hand stuff. The full process is interesting.

 

 

Usually, we look for the second-hand information on some BBS, it is not like a shop or TaoBao where all the stuffs have been classified, on the BBS, all the things are mix up. So you have to find where the things you want are, or you read the messages and check if there are something you need. It is not for sure you will be able to find the thing you want, but some times you can get things you need but did not expect. It is like a snake waiting for its quarry on the tree, it is waiting for a frog, but a rat comes. It can give you some feeling like surprise.

 

Several weeks ago, my wife and I went to another city to buy two bikes in the second-hand market, then we tried to come back by bike, we almost did it! But finally, we gave up, because we found we are running on a very undirect way, we spend 4 hours on 15 straight kms distance. We were really tired that day, but we were very happy because we passed many little villages and saw many new things, we even saw a wedding that day in one village!(AD: all the photos are in my album of this blog)

 

So buying second-hand stuff benifits life not only because of the low price, but also the process of buying can be a good memory in the life some times. And we are still students now, not a rich man, this is a acceptable way to improve our life, and often brings some special experience to us, why do not we open our mind and enjoy it?

 

Now, I am searching for a PSP, hehe.

 

我发现我对买二手上瘾了。

 

要放以前，我是根本不会想买二手的东西的，小时候别人碰过的筷子我都不用，怎么可能买别人用过的东西？可是时移世易，来到这边，有时候不得不考虑买些二手的东西应急。这里毕竟只是一个过路的地方，东西买多了将来带不走就全浪费了，比如如果买台新的电视机（我没说我要买啊）要至少300多欧，但是再卖二手的话，也许就只能卖150，甚至更少。这么一想，两三年的光景，凭空就少了150欧元，实在是舍不得。所以二手货便成为一个好的选择。 

 

但是我老婆对这个买卖可是不太感兴趣，这点我当然理解，我也不会什么都买二手的，比如内裤，打死我也不会买二手的。但是有些东西，比如微波炉，自行车，就无所谓啦，对于我这种喜欢占小便宜的“抠门”二手货自然是上好的选项。

 

其实我喜欢买二手也不光是价格问题，有时候觉得这也像一个休闲方式一样。买二手的东西基本都是在论坛里面自己找，不像在商店或者淘宝之类的商品非常全而且已经分好类了，在论坛里，需要一个帖子一个帖子的找，更多的时候是在碰。这感觉就像趴在树上等待猎物的蛇，也许想捉只青蛙，却等来了老鼠。有时候你想找个微波炉，却发现有人在卖一个很便宜的台灯，然后突然发现自己确实需要一个台灯，这时候就会有阵小小的惊喜。有时候看看大家在论坛里讨价还价，各出妙语，也别有一番乐趣。所以，买二手货有时候还真不在于那个物品，买的过程可能更有意思。

 

我跟老婆前几周去另一个城市买了两辆二手自行车，然后我们决定骑车回来，一路上跋山涉水，路过了无数小村庄，数次在小河和田地里穿行，最后却发现走的是一条非常不是直线的路径，5个小时，我们在向马堡方向走了15公里，只好放弃了。虽然累个半死，整个过程却非常有趣和难忘，我们看到了很多在火车上和大路上看不到的风景，经过了很多恬静的小镇，甚至看到了一对新人在举行婚礼，这些都成为了我们美好的回忆。如果买的新车，也许我们就不舍得在那些吭吭娃娃的路上颠簸了。（这次的途中拍了很多照片，都在相册里了，呵呵，悄悄广告一下）

 

前段时间我又在买游戏手柄的时候免费得到了毛笔，墨块和砚台，这些，可是花钱也很难买到的啊，但是有了笔墨，我们就可以多练练字，平复一下平时紧张的心情。而且，这在我买手柄的时候，根本没有料到，完全是意外的惊喜。

 

所以说，二手不光是价格低，本身也带给了我们一种新的生活体验，如果我们主动的尝试一下，并且感受其中的乐趣，我们的生活就会增添不少有趣的插曲。而且作为学生， 我还穷得很，只要不是沉迷于此，天天泡在论坛里蹲点等东西，为什么不尝试一下呢？

 

下一步，我在考虑是不是时机合适的时候入手一台psp或者汉王电纸之类的呢！

 

我老婆和我们的自行车，两辆车看上去还挺＂情侣＂的：）

 

After I came to Germany, I found I start to be interested in history novels and TVserious.

 

I watched the TV: king of Yue,Gou Jian; read the book: the stories happened in Ming.

 

I found all the Great People will bear a lot of things first. OK, this is not my discovery, almost everyone can tell this, but how many people really understand it?

 

Gou Jian used to be a slave in Wu, he pulled the car like a horse, he low himself to be a stair when Fu Chai come down from the car, he even taste Fu Chai's shit, even after doing this, it is still possible for him to be killed any time. After he go back to his country, he waited 20 years for his country recovering from the war. Finally he beat Wu and got everything back.

 

Zhu Yuanzhang's life is not much better than Guo Jian. He need not to taste other's shit, but his parents died very early, he has to be a monk, beg for food from other people in oder to survive.

 

Many people, especially the youth, will say in their mind, that is not so hard! I can also do that, in order to revenge and be remembered in the history, I can also pretend to be a slave, even more than 3 years, in order to survive to be a emperor, I can also beg for food on the street, anyway, no ones knows me, it is not even a problem!

 

I absolutely believe there will be some people say these kind of words, maybe the details are different, but in summary, they all think they can beat any difficulties, they are not so successful only because they do not have a chance. Their common property is that the harder other people told them one thing is, the more confiendence they will have.

 

Qian Zhongshu said: when we are young, we always confused our ability with our passion.

 

we saw many fresh students go to the insititute under older students' dissuasion and then awaste their 3 or 5 years time because of some unexpected difficulties. Maybe you will think difficulty is from begging for food or being a slave, because it seems the problem of the following two is losing face. It is not ture. Some one use to do a experiment, he ask 40 men to piss in their trousers and promiss them that no else will know it, but finally, no one can make it. You need not only fight with others' comments, but also your own mind. It is the same to pretenting to be a slave of others or begging for food.

 

Before I went back to China last month, I want to take a PlayBoy for a friend as a gift, there are many porn journals in some book shop, I found it is very difficut to stand close to that shelf, and pay the cashier's, no one will laugh at you or disdain you in front of you, and it is totally legal, but for me, it is really difficult to do it. I do not know you, you can try.

 

 

出国后，发现越发的喜欢中国的历史。在这边看了一些历史小说和电视剧，例如《明朝那些事儿》，《越王勾践》以及《汉武大帝》。从这些历史事件中，越发的体会到要成大事先要受磨练的道理。尤其是前两个例子中，朱元璋起事之前真是三教九流啥都做过，要饭算是流传比较广的，而越王勾践更是为了保国复仇屈尊去吴国为奴，为吴王夫差做过骖马，脚蹬，甚至还尝了夫差的大便，即便这样还要整日担心被杀，他在吴国用了三年的时间换取吴王的信任，回国之后又等了二十年休养生息，终于使越国再次强大，灭吴复仇。这样忍辱负重，在绝望中寻找希望的例子历史上很多，大家都明白的道理，可是未必都真的理解。

 

很多人，尤其是我们年轻人（这个句子真难写，不加“我们”怕人说我故作高深，加上“我们”又怕被拍充小装嫩），经常初生牛犊不怕虎，浑身上下都是明知山有虎偏向虎山行的英雄胆。在很多人眼里，周围人所谓的困难根本不值一提，是他们太过无能造成的，朱元璋上街要饭有什么难的，现在满大街不都是要饭的么，只要拉下脸来就行了，反正谁也不认识谁。至于越王勾践屈身为奴，为了复仇大计，临时装装估计也没什么难的，夜深人静的时候想象复仇之后的淋漓畅快，三年随随便便就忍过去了。他们不曾认真体会劝谏者所说的困难，他们的共同特点就是，别人告诉他们一件事非常难，他们反而觉得很有挑战性，越发的感兴趣，同时在心理还暗暗的鄙视一把劝阻者，把他们划到俗人的类别里。他们心中，豪情万丈，信心十足，唯缺一个机会。我看到很多师弟师妹，在师兄的劝阻之下义无反顾地冲进了他们不该去的实验室和学术领域，然后再遇到了变态的小老板之后心灰意冷，抱怨上天不公，消沉下去，浪费自己的大好时光。

 

钱钟书先生说：年轻的时候，我们容易把自己的创作激情当作自己的创作能力。

 

有人说，克服困难和要不要脸不是一回事儿，要饭和作奴隶在某种程度上说，只要不要脸了就会容易很多。可是问题就在于，要想决定不要脸，本身就是件很困难的事情。有人曾经作过一个心理学实验：把四十个男人分开关在屋子里，要求他们不脱裤子直接撒尿，并且保证此事决不会有第三个人知道——如果他们尿成了的话，结果发现，根本没有人能做到这一点。可见平时我们所接受的教育对我们行为的约束力有多大。前段时间回国之前，我想买本《花花公子》带给一个老朋友作礼物，在这边很多书店就有个书架摆放的全是各种露骨的色情杂志，我发现要想在那个架子旁边站着翻会儿书真是非常困难，当你拿着书去结帐的时候更是恨不得找个缝钻进去。可是，绝对没有人会当面笑话你，或者露出鄙视的神色，所有的障碍完全都在自己的心里。其内心体会，大致相当于20岁左右的时候去买安全套，大家可以想像一下。

 

如果你还是觉得没什么困难的而且你有恰好在国外，你可以亲自去尝试一下。

 

 

 

 

下面是我在书店拍的杂志封面照片，最后那张就是大名鼎鼎的反华杂志《明镜》，同是禁刊，从照片的清晰程度上却能看出我拍摄时紧张程度的差别。

This movie makes me remind me a Chinese movie: The peace Hotel.
Another lenged.
But this one is more real.
The story is full of male hormone, happened mainly among 3 men, Ben.Wade, Dan.Ivans and his son,William.  Ben.Wade is a leader of some robbers,or cow boys, he killed hundreds of people,robbed millions of dollar, with his boys, but goverment has no idea about him. Dan.Ivans used to be a soldier, left half a leg in a battle, has a pretty wife and two sons, but now the railway company is going to take everything away from him by building a railway through his farm, which means the goverment will retake the area. His son,  William is younth eagar to prove himself as a hero. They come together because Ben.Wade's careless after one rob, Dan want to earn 200 hundreds dollars by sending Wade to a small town and William wants to help his father. In fact, it is a litttle hard to say if William try to join the group just in order to help his father or also want to get closer to Ben.Wade. Apparently he is very interested in Ben.Wade. After he saw Ben.Wade killed his man and the pinkerton, he said, he is fast. And at that scene, the director shoots William and his faher seperately in order to show their different attitude about Ben.Wade. He thinks Ben.Wade is a hero, and unfortunately his father is not in his mind. Apparently Ben.Wade and Dan.Ivans have both noticed that. So when William threats Ben.Wade in his back, Ben doesn't belive he will shoot; and so that night in Dan's house, Dan did not want his sons and wife talk to Wade, he feels they are interest in Ben.Wade and maybe even a little bit admire.
 
So now we can understand why does Dan want to send Ben.Wade to Yuma station, he wants to prove himself, by finishing a impossible mission. But it is very dangerous, of course, Wade's boys never give up rescuing him, and as a leader of them, Ben.Wade also kept on trying to escape. He uesed to have chances to kill Dan, but he did not, and even help Dan send himself to the train. Why? He used to say this to Dan: I am afraid I will get addict into helping people, that make you think you are a God.... He want to be a good person, but he can not, at least in the world, no.  Otherwise, he will be like Ivans. He likes Ivans, because he can insist on doing what is right.
 
Everyone is doing according to their heart. Ivans is trying to prove himself, Dan is trying to escape and protecting the people he like, Charli Prince is trying to saving his boss. Everyone is right. But, when they get together, the real story starts.
 
In order to save his boss, Charli ofcourse should kill Ivans, especially Ivans still insists on trying to send Dan to the train station, everything is balanced by Ben's feeling, before he knows Ivans' story about his leg and his sons... Then Ben starts helping Ivans sending himself, this two men start coorperating on one thing. Because Ben wants to help Ivans become a real hero, which he want to be but he can not. That is not only Ivans' dream, but also his. They almost make it if Charli did not shoot Ivans in the end. That bullet killed Ivans, broke Ben's dream, also killed himself. We could be shocked when we see Ben kills all his cowboys, because we see they really did a lot for Ben, in a real world, Ben may not do that, but in a movie, the director arranges this scene to make us understand Ben's feeling. The pity and shock we felt from this, is Ben's feeling when he saw Ivans is killed.
 
The last 30 minutes makes this movie be a God-products movie.
 
In end, Ben walked into the train by himself, he has to pretend his dream by this way. That period of US needs hero, but that period of US also kills hero, that is the story.
 
 
 
好久没有写影评了,一个是看得少了,再就是看的精品少了，当然，手懒也是一个原因。
《决战犹马镇》确是一部精品，不论从客观性还是艺术手法上，都有可圈点之处。
主演里面就有大名鼎鼎的罗素克罗，还有
一个演威风但邪恶的西部大盗，另一个是正义但是不威风的退伍军人。故事主要讲述的就是埃文斯为了200美元协助政府和铁路公司押解大盗韦德去车站的过程。影片中虽然没有四处充斥枪战，却弥散着浓重的牛仔的味道，人物形象都像是刀刻出来一样浑身上下布满了粗狂的线条，甚至连埃文斯的儿子也不例外。虽然同是粗狂，人物性格却各有特点。埃文斯隐忍坚强，本韦德沉稳潇洒，查理王子忠实凶残，埃文斯的儿子崇拜英雄，政府人员多阴线怕死。综观全片，政府人员强行圈地，不顾他人死活，保镖代其行凶，更好不愧疚的滥杀过印第安土著，查理杀人不眨眼，只认钱和兄弟，本韦德策划实施过几十起抢劫，只有埃文斯一家是好人，却也只有他们家过的最窝囊。在这种境遇下，埃文斯的儿子将敢做敢当坏蛋头子本韦德视作偶像也便不太奇怪了。剧中曾有一个情节，有人指责本韦德为了黄金曾经炸死了一节车厢的人，本韦德若无其事的更正，不是一节车厢，是整列火车，埃文斯的儿子在一旁不禁笑出声来。虽然崇拜，但是小伙子并不盲从，他依然站在父亲一边，协助押解韦德。他对埃文斯，自己的父亲，也有崇拜的感情，但却多了一层不解和怀疑，这从他多次的与父亲行为不一致可以看出来。显然，埃文斯了解自己的儿子，儿子对别人的崇拜超过了对自己的，这种心情可想而知，何况对方还是个过的比自己潇洒舒服的江洋大盗。所以要说埃文斯执意要押解本韦德是出于正义或者金钱，也不全对，其中还多了一份赌气。本韦德自然也了解这一点，但是他似乎比其他人更能感受埃文的内心，两人的生存原则虽然迥异，却隐约之间有种英雄相惜的意思。
这也难怪，在整部片子里，称得上英雄的也只有这两人，其余的人，像政府的人，身手太差，而身手好的查理等人，却太过残忍近乎冷血。可是即便这两人，也不能符合理想中的英雄形象，本韦德坏事做绝，虽然洒脱并且身手不凡组织多谋沉稳老练，却始终是个坏人；埃文斯虽然冷静勇敢，枪法超棒，人却做得太过窝囊，连自己的儿子都有些不服。
可是这样一个窝囊的人,本韦德却很瞧得上眼,一路上不断地攀谈,并且在关键时候迟迟不杀埃文斯,因为他在埃文斯身上看到了自己向往的东西,原则和正义。虽然我杀人无数，可我无时不在想着放下屠刀，奈何人在江湖，身不由己阿！潇洒的身影，是靠压制和牺牲心中的良知换来的，在埃文斯德身上，本韦德看到了自己一直向往和珍视的东西，在那个混乱的年代和社会，他找到了有能力作恶却不做恶的人，这就是他一直尊重埃文斯的原因。本韦德曾经对埃文斯说：我不敢去尝试帮助别人，因为那会令我上瘾，人们看着你的眼睛，好像你是他们的上帝。
 
在这期间，本韦德的手下查理一直没有放弃过营救过自己的老大，即便是手下有人动摇过，怀疑过。一路披荆斩棘的追过去，不由得令我们喜欢他的忠诚和义气。
 
三个人在各自做着自己认为正确的事情，直到三个人碰到一起。查理为了救出老大，就要杀死所有阻拦他的人，埃文斯恰好看上去像是个死心眼，而本韦德又不想埃文斯这样白白死掉，于是三股力量拧在一起把影片推向了高潮。一阵激烈的枪战之后，本韦德的想法发生了变化，这是很自然的，其实在这之前，肯定已经有观众对埃文斯的执拗失去耐心了，如不是本韦德手下留情，他都不知道死掉多少回了，正如本韦德说的：够了，丹，我不能陪你玩了，你的儿子已经不再看了，没有人看你表演下去了，你为什么不趁着活着，带着你的儿子和你剩下的这条腿回家去！虽然埃文斯才是影片中真正的正面的角色，可是我想，在这一刻，所有的观众都是支持本韦德的。然而，影片最能给人震动的正是接下来埃文斯回答本韦德讲的故事：他虽然是神射手营的地神射手，可是他唯一参加过的一场战斗是在撤退，他的腿也是被自己射伤的，可想而知，他再也没有机会参加战斗证明自己，如同鸟儿在学会飞翔之前折断了翅膀。听完这个故事，我一下明白了他在家里的感受，他的儿子对他的看法，他的妻子如何看待自己的丈夫。他太需要一个机会来证明自己了，而本韦德这个世人皆知的大盗，正是一个这样的机会——虽然埃文斯并不是完全讨厌本韦德。从这一刻起，本韦德完全找到了自己丢失的那部分，本韦德和埃文斯就像一正一邪的两个双胞胎，是英雄这个定义的两个方面，他们身上那些优秀的特点加起来正好可以拼成一个完整的英雄形象。他们也想埃文斯的儿子一样一直在寻找着英雄，渴望成为英雄。所以本韦德开始在查理的枪林弹雨下帮助埃文斯押送自己，他要亲手帮助埃文斯成为一个真正的英雄，在埃文斯的身上完成自己的理想。他们的这一尝试几乎成功了，本韦德登上了开往刑场的火车，可是几乎同时，查理杀掉了埃文斯。我们几乎可以感受到本韦德一样的震惊，可是也许我们体会不了他的那份复杂的惋惜。然后，我们还没再震惊中清醒过来，我们看到本韦德木然地走下车，结果查理递过来的枪，满腔怨愤地杀掉了所有试图营救他的手下。我们再一次被震惊了，在还没有从第一次震惊中清醒过来的时候。这一次，除了震惊，我们还对查理抱有相当复杂的惋惜，虽然他是个杀人不眨眼的强盗，但是他的忠诚和义气又让我们颇为喜欢。我认为这其实导演特意安排的，在现实世界里，本韦德也许不会对手下开枪，但是在电影里，导演通过这种方式，让我们感受到了本韦德感受到的震惊和痛惜，我们收到的两次震惊叠加起来模拟了本韦德看到埃文斯中枪时的震惊，而我们对查理的惋惜，和由此产生的对本韦德隐约的怨恨，模拟了本韦德队埃文斯，自己的梦想，以及对查理的感觉，这真是一个极其巧妙的感情移植的方式，我的看法是此片因为最后这三十分钟尤其是从本韦德与埃文斯联手到他杀掉手下这段，使得影片成为少有的经典之作，无论是观赏性还是艺术性上。

最后本韦德自己登上了赴往刑场的火车，在埃文斯儿子的面前，他用这种方法为保护自己和埃文斯儿子的梦想做了最后的努力。当然，随他而去的马是观众们相信，他最终是不会死掉的。

那是一个需要英雄但是英雄却无法生存的世界，看着远去的火车，我们不由得生出这样的感慨。

If you ask me what make me grow up a lot, I will tell you: marry. Then what is the biggest and most impressive thing for marry? Wedding.

 

That is why my wife and I spend all our holiday of one year in China this time.

And it is still not enough.

 

Because my wife and I are both not in China and do not have enough time to prepare our wedding, our parents have to do that. It is really a huge project, every detail can use out all your energy. We know these work should belong to us, like other new couples, but we do not have time. My parents did every thing, negotiating with wedding-photo studio, buying candys, wedding-dress, renting cars, searching for the wedding-orgnizer, inviting and ranging guests, booking restraunt, etc...

We do not know how tired they are, but even though what we need to do is following the order, we felt exhausted.

 

My wife's parents and uncle also did a lot of things for our wedding. Without our relatives' help, we can not imagine how we can finish this work.

 

There are also many friends, our parents' friends, our friends, gave us a lot of help. They did not ask anything, just did what we required.

 

The wedding is very nice, it is a milestone in our life. I told me before the wedding: do not cry. But when we hug our mothers and said our love-words, we can not help cry. I can feel the tear in my eyes and see my wife crying. But we were happy and excited that day. Many friends came from very far place, Germany, Qinghai, and Beijing.

 

From that day, we were not two persons any more, we were one family. We will beat all the difficulties in our life, share every happy and sad moment. We have got the wishes from our parents, relatives and friends!

 

We also wish everyone could have a good happy life, and enjoy their lives!

 

Thank you all!

 

 

八月十六号，我们结婚了！从此，zfz成为我的妻子，我的太太，夫人，老婆和媳妇儿！

 

一场盛大的婚礼，集结了所有爱我们的人的帮助。我们的父母即亲人，为此倾注了大量的精力和时间，我们两个在国外无法自己操办此事，但是我们心里深知这其中的操劳并且感到愧疚。父母的朋友，我们的朋友，借车借摄像机，搬东西，订酒店，组织协调，这些仅仅靠我们一家之力显然无法完成，各位，谢谢啦！那些不远万里来参加我们的婚礼，百忙之中来为我们送来祝福，以及来不了致电祝福的朋友们，还有因为种种原因没有得到通知但是在做梦的时候祝福我们的朋友们，谢谢你们！

 

今天是九月十六号，我们结婚整整一个月，只是一个月前，我们还在国内，现在则在他乡。可是我却还能感受到一个月前的兴奋与激动，那一刻是难忘的，唯一的，神圣的，从此我们作为一个新的家庭单位参与到社会活动中来，我们将共同面对困难，度过幸福与苦难，我们是在也不能分开的一个整体。

 

再次感谢所有祝福我们的亲人和朋友，也祝福你们！

 

我们在婚礼上对对方的告白：

 

我对妻子：

据说，前世五百次的回眸才换来今生的一次擦肩而过，

而我们，用五年来八千公里的思念，才换来这幸福的一刻。

这条短短的红地毯，我们用了八年的时间才走完，

八年的等待是漫长的，而后几十年的厮守确实短暂的，

我将在后面短暂的厮守中认真的对你说：

我爱你！

 

妻子对我：

 

我们牵手八年，把年终我们经历过很多事情，

在这里，在各位亲朋好友面前，我想对你说几个谢谢。

首先谢谢你在我回国的时候对我悉心的照顾；

然后谢谢你为我们的团聚做出的努力；

平时有时候可能我有点任性，谢谢你的宽容；

贾树新，我爱你，

让我们相爱，相知，相偎到永远。

 

 

很快，又有很多好友相继要结婚了，很遗憾我们无法参加他们的婚礼，各位兄弟，我们在这里默默地祝福你们了！祝你们婚姻美满，阖家欢乐，早生贵子啦~！

 

2009年9月16日，德国宿舍内记下留念

 

 

I am not sure if only Chinese characters could become to a kind of art, but hand writing is really important to our chinese people.

 

We may have the largest amount of professional teacher in the world to teach students how to write more beautifully. There are also many competitions in the schools to push students to write more beautifully. We have many disdainful words to descripe the ugly hand writing, e.g., "dogs' scratch".

 

But what we want to do is not exactly what our parents and teachers want us to do. They want more beautiful handwriting, but we want the fast-handwriting, which they were doing. We do not know what is beautiful, but we think the handwriting like their's is beautiful. So we tried our best to make our handwriting looks perfunctory, it makes us look like more mature. It is like a war in that period, in which the adults do everything to prevent children to go into their side, and we must fight, for our right.

 

Unfortunately, the group is not distinguished by the handwriting, as Zheng Yuanjie said: people like learning everything from the successful man except for their professional skills.

One of my best friends used to complain for that his father always asked him to practice writing carefully and forbid he writing fast-handwriting so that he still does not know how to that.

 

In fact, he is not the only one who can not do that, so what? Some of them can write very well, we also admire their beautiful handwriting, even if they are so perfunctory.

Fast only means you are praticed, we just know it after we grow up.

It is late.

Some stop writing fast and start to learn how to write beautifully.

 

As a professor told me: for biology experiment, if you try to skip some steps, in the end you will have to go back to the first step and redo everything.

Unfortunately, almost no one want to wait.

 

汉字书写也许是世界上唯一可以被称为艺术的书写方式，我们称之为书法，也就是写字的方法。我们也许是世界上最热衷这种艺术形式的民族，我们的学校有各种各样的书法培训班，我们还会不定时地组织各书法比赛之类的活动，对于那些写的难看的字，我们还有一些专门的形容：狗啃的。你可以很容易的在书店买到钢笔或毛笔的字帖，就如同买到食谱一样简单。因为我们相信，就像我们的家长和老师强调的一样：字如其人。甚至在高考的时候，如果你的字写得漂亮，你的作文分数也会不自觉地高上几分。

 

写的一手好字，真的是非常重要——即便是在打字机随处可见的今天，可是，横平竖直这件事情，却不是对每个人来说都这么简单的。

 

我们的长辈一再强调让我们认真地“绣”好每一笔，可是他们自己却总是在作业签字的时候大笔一挥，写出一个极难辨认的“阅”。我们发现那酷极了！原来那样的字就是好看的字，就是成熟的字，就是我们一笔一笔爬的目标。

 

其实很简单嘛！

 

于是大家争先尝试着写连笔字，那是一种成熟的象征，表明自己已经脱离了笨拙的仿宋体时代，虽然暂时无法坐上家长的宝座，却也和班里其他“后进分子”划开界限了。其实在很多时候，我们腕部和手上稚嫩的肌肉根本还无法提供在快速书写中笔尖转向所需的向心力，很多时候，那些所谓的“连笔字”可能更显示团在一起的一个毛线团。我们的师长当然无法容忍这样的事情，他们采用各种方法让我们放慢书写速度从而使字迹清晰，可是这在我们看来，根本就是他们不了解我们的能力，或者是他们出于自尊不愿意承认我们的字体——他们写了几十年才写成那样，我们几年甚至几个月就办到了。

 

所以他们打压，我们反抗，这是一场没有硝烟的战争，我们为了自由而战。

 

可惜，阵营的划分并不是以字迹的潦草程度为标准的，更可惜地是，那时的我们，还无法区分字体的美丑，更不明白，笔划之间的连接实际是大量的书写联系之后熟练的必然结果，和字体的好看并没有关系。

郑渊洁说：普通人最喜做的就是拿自己和名人作比较，找出其中除成功以外的其他相似点。

比较我们和长辈的字，我们只看到了潦草，没有看到其中的美。

我有个很要好的朋友还曾经跟我抱怨过，他的父亲一直令他坚持练字，导致了他现在还不会写连笔字。

 

其实到现在不会写连笔字的又何止他一个，可是很多人的字体着实漂亮，大家依旧会非常羡慕那一手好字，没有人会因为字迹不够潦草而笑话那是小孩子写的。而且很多人，又开始放慢写字的速度，耐心的去描字帖去了。

就像一个教授跟我说的：作生物试验，如果你想跳过头几步直接作后面的，那结果只能是，到最后你不得不回到第一步重新作。

可惜，很多人并没有这个耐心。

 

 

I have a bad habit, I always want to delay everything, even for sleeping.

 

I do not know how long I have had this kind of habit, maybe from I was born? I still can remeber that I did not want to go to bed even until the TV programme became a white and black circle. Now there are many 24 hours channel, I do not know it is lucky or unlucky to me.

 

I do not know why I have such a habit, because it seems my parents do not like delaying anything, and I have a girl friend who is always eager to finish everything as soon as possible, so I absolutely did not get any negetive effect from them. Some days before, I read an article said the persons who try to delay is infact are trying to escaping, because they do not have enough confidence to finish the task and they are afraid of to face up with the truth. Is this explaination correct? I do not know, but at least, I do not want to admit that I am always trying to escape from the truth.

 

So about this habit, there are many things I do not know, but it does not matter, the important thing is I know it is a bad habit and I am trying to improve it. My parents and girl friend also trys to help me because they are worrying about my health. My girl friend even found many articles from the internet to tell how bad it is for me to sleep very late. I always know it, but hardly to obey it. Every sharing night we had, we had a little fight for the sleeping schedule. Last Saturday night, I was correcting my codes while she was washing, I know it was late, we should go to bed, but I really want to finish that step, so I kept on doing my work while worrying about she would memble like she did very often. So when she went to bed, I heard some sounds come from her voice and thought she was membling. I tried to stop it before it happened, so I shouted: What is wrong with you! She was scared and asked me very carefully: ah? I immediately noticed that maybe I made a mistake and should not blame her. So in order to avoid quarrel, I have to pretend saying nothing, so I also "ah!?"

....

But my girl friend is famous for her smart, this of course can not fool her, and finally we knows what exactly happend just now. She really went to bed with some membling, but not complain for me, she was just singing a song because she felt happy when she was going to fall asleep.

 

It is just like a snake in my heart, but what I am really afraid of is the membling, not the bad effect of sleeping late to my health. So other people can put a snake in your heart, but they can hardly shake your heart really.

 

 

 

我有个很恶劣的毛病，爱拖拉，甚至连睡觉也不例外。

 

我不知道从什么时候开始学会的拖拉，可能打从娘胎里出来就学会了吧。在我很小的时候，电视台还没有现在这种24小时播放的习惯，我还能很清楚的记得，我总是要等到所有的电视台都变成了那个黑笔条块相间的大球，然后才黯然伤神，恋恋不舍的去睡觉。很难说对那时的我，这是幸运还是不幸。

 

我也不知道我是从哪里学来的这个坏毛病，因为打从我记事儿起，我爸妈就一直没有停止过训斥我的拖拉，所以这个毛病应该至少跟随了我20几年了，而且应该不是从学校学来的，很有可能是我自学成才的。所以从这个角度来说，来自基因的可能性很大，但是不巧的是我爸妈都是急性子，我的拖拉对他们来说简直是莫大的折磨和讽刺。我也曾经很严肃的研究过这个问题，因为屡次的赶火车赶任务经历让我切实的感受到，生活需要刺激，但是生活不应该像一个刺猬，浑身都是刺激。有个理论说，爱拖拉的人缺乏克服困难的自信，所以他们总是试图把事情拖到最后才做，一方面是一种逃避，另一方面，如果事情没有做好，也可以归结为时间不够。还有一说是爱拖拉的人大多数是完美主义者。我比较喜欢后一种解释，但是这根本对我修正作息时间没用，尤其是对睡觉来说，当然是睡的越久越完美。

 

关于睡觉的问题，我父母和女朋友早已深恶痛绝，他们反复的跟我强调早睡早起的好处和熬夜的致命害处，我的女朋友还从网上找来了很多关于熬夜对身体不好的实证文章，动之以情，晓之以理，就差把李大师搬出来了，我也多次表示深刻得认识到我的问题，感受到在本来男性平均寿命就比女性短3-5年的基础上我这样做的严重后果，并且表明了我痛改前非的决心，当然，还有一个很重要的因素是，女朋友的叹气功实在了得。可是，尘归尘，土归土，说归说，做归做，用我女朋友的话说，让我早睡觉就像要杀了我一样，想要我命，哪有这么容易！上周六，我们洗刷完毕，我有点事情没弄完，于是又抱着电脑拖延时间，女朋友从卫生间出来，路过我的桌子，然后就上床去了，我分明听到有个声音从她的嘴里发出来，我本能的感觉那是某种前奏，于是我打算先发制人，提前结束争吵，好能无干扰得做完事情。我大吼一声：你有毛病啊~！

“嗯？什么？”女朋友丈二和尚摸不到头脑，而且明显不是装的。

她不是装的，那我就得装了，“啊？怎么了？”我也装糊涂。

“什么怎么了？你刚才说什么呢？”她开始反攻。

“没有啊，谁说话了？”唉。。。被动啊，只能装神经病了。

这种伎俩当然骗不过英明神武的老婆大人，最终罪行还是暴露了，事情也搞清楚了，原来人家刚才在哼歌。。。

是我做贼心虚了，呵呵。

 

可是细究起来，让我心虚的却是女朋友的念叨的责备，却并不是熬夜给我带来的损伤。别人可以通过哄吓来规范纠正自己的行为，可是真正认识到问题的所在，却还是要靠自己的反省阿。

 

就在刚才，老婆又打来电话，听说我没睡，表示老婆很生气，后果很严重，同志们，我先闪了！

静静的坐在那，

让微风吹过我的脸颊，

天边的那抹红，

让人分不清是朝霞，

还是夕阳西下。

水中浮着的鸭，

如同儿时美术课本上的图画，

很久才懒洋洋的动一下。

人们悠闲的躺在草坪上，

贪婪的享受着这份闲暇。

闲暇，

只有片刻，

没有急匆匆地脚步，

没有昨日的劳累，明日的忧虑，今日的繁杂，

只有当下。

只有天地，只有我，

和身边美丽的画。

鸟儿在歌唱，

河水在荡漾，

还有悠悠的音乐在为他们...

清场？

那不是音乐，是我的手机铃声，

md,

原来是老板的电话……！

It is amazing that I have insisted on writing in this blog for four years, but I am getting lazier and lazier, one reason is that I try to keep on writing also in english, another reason is I found I can not write the issuse so easily as I used to, and it is harder to find a topic now--I am getting busier and busier. However, I have more and more ideas about writing stories, but it takes me very long time, I have to take to my time, hehe!

 

转眼间这个博客已经坚持了四年了,赫赫,不过近来越发的懒惰,一方面是因为坚持用英语,另一方面,发现写短小的随笔没有以前得心应手了,话题也少多了,可能是太忙了吧,小故事的想法倒是很多,但是实现起来周期长多了,慢慢来吧,呵呵!

女朋友生日快乐！

5月11日

5月13日

5月19日

6月1日

又是一年儿童节，早就不是儿童了，不过还是祝大家节日快乐，永远保持一颗童心！

6月4日

6月7日

6月17日

天下父亲父亲节快乐！

best wishes to all the fathers in the world

Man!

6月18日

6月25日

不要告诉我幸福无价，

因为我分明看到了它并不奢华．

7月13日

7月19日

8月3日

8月11日

8月23日

2月12日

2月15日

2月26日

3月16日

3月25日

3月31日

4月27日

2008年4月7号9：50，我的姥爷去世了，84岁。

 

 

悼念亡者

国丧日，默哀三日悼念地震中死去的人们，希望活下来的人们坚强的活下去，希望科学有一天能够发展到不再让这一幕重演。

 

hello,I am back!我回来了！

Hello, everyone, I am back, after disappearing for five month.

各位好，消失了五个月，我又回来了，呵呵！

details drive the results

Some days a ago, a colleague in my office(now, I do not have a office any more.)

Four years ago, I open this blog, I know people who came here normally do not have much time to read my article, so I made a rule for myself: do not make the article longer than 2000 charactors or 15 lines.

 

In the first 3 years, I did it not bad, but after a long pause because of some problem in my life, I found my style is changing. This is the first time I feel that writing a interesting and meaning article in a very few lines is so difficult.

I can still remember how hard I felt when I studied in the primary school it is to write a article longer than 400 words. Sometimes I wrote a article longer than 400 words, I would record the number of the words in the end of the article very proudly.

 

Is it funny?

 

When we are little children, we think the words are not enough, now, we feel the paper or the space is not enough.

 

I wanted to be a adult when I was young, but now I really want to take the student bag and forback to the prymary school. We do not have a Norble Prize winner, so our goverment makes some rule to keep the scientist working hard, but finally, it makes the situation even worse.

 

Every thing has two opposite sides, when we have one of them, we want to purchurs the other one so that we can have both, but normally we find when we get the other one, we have lost the first one.

 

It is really like a swing, wind swings it lightly, you want to keep it stable, so you push the swing in the opposition direction, but in fact you swing it more heavily.

 

Maybe this is what Laozi said: doing nothing is doing everything.

 

四年前，我开了这个博，考虑到来这里的朋友多半没有太多时间，所以当时给自己定了一个规矩，文章不要超过2000字，或者不要超过20行。可是在几次大的更新停顿后，我发现坚持这一目标越发的困难，有时候感觉还有很多想法没有表达出来，废话却已经扯了一大堆了。

 

于是想起小时候写作文，时常是啃破笔头憋出一个题目，然后开始看着老师规定的作文字数开始发愁，偶尔作文篇幅超过了四百字，就赶快自豪的仔细统计一遍字数并且将其自豪的记录在作文的最后一页。

 

如今却斗转星移了。

 

小时候是发愁字数不够，现在发愁纸张不够了。

 

小时候总是羡慕大人们说一不二的话语权，长大了却开始羡慕小时候无忧无虑。

 

当年秦始皇焚书坑儒是为了防止读书人造反，可最终推翻秦朝建立汉朝的刘邦项羽却都不是什么读书人。

 

我们建国数十年没有一个诺奖得主，国家设立了各种体系规则来选拔人才和促使科技工作者拼命工作，却发现换来的只是庞大的sci列表，情况似乎反而变得更糟糕。

 

所有相互矛盾的特性都会集中在一件事物上，我们总是手里拿着其中的一端，热切地盼望和追求者另一端，等到另一端到手，却看到先前的一端正在离我们远去，然后我们意识到要达到一个平衡的有多难。

如同一个在微风中轻轻摆动的秋千，你急于让停下来，于是你朝相反的方向推了它一把，它反而摆动的更剧烈了，其实不管它，也许他倒可以更快的停住呢。

 

这也许就是无为而无不为的道理吧，对目标的追求，不在于对目标的直接推动，而在于沿目标反方向的向回追溯。

 

文章长短的意义，不在于文章形式的优劣，而在于其内在内容是否紧凑；

对年龄的大小向往，关键在于调整出自己需要的心态；

诺将的实现，在于学术气氛的营造；

秋千的静止，在于认识到使它动起来的原因啊。

 

对于目标的无为，其实包含着对目标以外的无不为吧！

 

 

Back ground:  

The earth is not suitable for people any more,many countries are trying to move to the moon which has been improved very much.

 

Players:

There are mainly 6 countries fighting for the moon:USA,RUSSIA,GERMANY,FRANCE,CHINA,JAPAN

USA,GERMANY and CHINA are in the same group,the other three are together.USA sits opposite to RUSSIA,GERMANY vs FRANCE,CHINA vs JANPA.The countries in the same group are not neighbor.

 

Rules:

Every country gets their wapons in the beginning by random way.

10:stone

J:kinfe

Q:gun

K:tank

A:cannon

2:plane and bomb

black:atom bomb

colorful:hydrogen bomb

 

if one country use more than 5*10,4*J,3*Q,2*K,2*A,2*2,or a black or a colorful,it means it declear war on its opposite county,and the other country should fight back with the same amount but better wapons.Then other counctries can not take part into this war inorder to prevent being attacked.The local war will be ended until one can not fight back any more.

 

Because plane and nuclear bomb are very powerful in the war,so they are able to show with other wapons,but if you use plane when you use other lower wapons, the plane is not so powerful, because it is only 100% powerful in the sky,not on the ground, so the function of the plane in this case will be only a normal wapon,like a stone or tank.Nuclear bomb always has the same function.

 

the number from 4 to 9 are normal people,every country will try to send them to the moon as a test to check if there are other countries will beat them.After every local war, the winner country will do it one time.3 is the children, all the countries will send their children to the moon in the end, and the country who send their children to the moon is the winner.

 

The first two countries can get bigger area on the moon,and the last two wont to the the moon,so the looser will have to gave the two winners one or two wapons better than plane in the next cycle to buy some space on the moon.The first winner get two,the second get one while the last one will pay two for that.

 

If during one cycle,any country did not beat his enimy at least one time,it means it is the satellites country of its enimy,it will gave one wapon better than plane to its opposite country.

 

If the children is killed,the country will pay for that,one of its wapon better than plane will be belong to the killer.

 

If any country does not have a child in one cycle,it has to buy at least one from its opposit country,if the enimy just has one child,this country can get the help from his group.

 

If one country wants to take part into the war between two other countries,it should be sure it has enough nuclear bomb to protect its all kinds of wapons or people except its children who should be far from that.Otherwise, this country will be a looser.

 

背景：人多无聊的时候，大家凑在一起坐在地上，边玩边瞎扯。

 

玩家：六人，分两组围圈坐，同组不相邻，相对为对家。

 

规则：主体规则同跑得快，或者叫争上游。

特色规则：

够级：5个10，4个J，3个Q，2个K，2个A，2个2，小画，大画都算够级。在出牌时，如果有一方出的牌大过上述标准，视为够级，此时只能由对家接牌，两家对战直至一方无法再接牌，然后开始新一轮发牌。3必须留到最后出。画和2可以随其他够级牌一起，但是2在此时只相当于普通的随出的够级牌。

 

进贡：先出光牌者为胜，取前两名，后两名为失败，在下一轮游戏中，败者向胜者进贡，最后一名进两张，第一名的两张，第二名得一张。

 

点贡：如果在一轮游戏中，有一家从没有够级成功，视为点贡，在下一轮向对家进一张贡。

 

憋三：如果有一家在最后倒数第二套牌的时候被阻挡成功，手中只剩下三，视为憋三，在下一轮要向阻挡他的人进一张贡。

 

买三：如果凑巧没三，需要向对家买，对家没有可以从同伙中获得。

 

烧牌：如果在两家够级过程中，其他有一家加入，则视为烧牌，需要连续扔掉手中剩下的牌，但每套牌需要挂画。最后一套3可以不挂。

 

 

 

 

 

 

     这些骇人的传闻就像赖在腐尸上的苍蝇一样黑压压的嗡嗡的挥之不去，而王雷可算是深受其苦。一次两次你可以不信，天天十几遍的悼念，不由得你不信啊，晚上回去开门的时候，时常就会觉得背后的阴风嗖嗖的飘过来，额头上马上就会渗出几滴汗珠，这种背后吹冷风，额头冒冷汗的日子，过久了谁受得了啊！于是王雷时常给杜蒙唠叨两句：这个学期结束了，一定要求换宿舍，实在不行就搬出去住！杜蒙总是哈哈一笑：你小子还立志做科学家呢，这点唯物主义精神都没有！然后就接着对着屏幕里的A片流哈喇子。
 
      不过笑话归笑话，杜蒙平时还是很照顾王雷的，直到他胆子小，平时他就早回来一点，敞开着门开着音响看A片，宿管的说过他快一万遍了，让他注意影响，可他却理直气壮地说：你不让我看这个，难道然我看午夜凶铃阿，不看这个我怎么转移注意力阿！宿管倒也理解，毕竟这间屋子还没什么人敢住呢，看就看吧，别让领导知道就行啦！——不过领导现在没事儿也都绕着这里走。

       就这样糊弄着,日子过到了学期末。
 
       巨大的考试压力让人们暂时淡忘了聊斋置议，在学生中流传的各式各样的传闻变成了第一条第二条以及公式一公式二，就连杜蒙都收起了往日吊儿郎当的德行，开始捧起书本来，王雷则比平时都要多自习半个小时，然后才回来睡觉。不过，他显然还是心有顾忌的，还是不敢回来的太晚，因为他知道，杜蒙每到11点就铁定要睡觉的，而他是在不想回来之后面对一间黑洞洞的屋子。半年的磨合，两人之间已经达成了某种默契，杜蒙每天都会早回来一点开门开灯洗刷，然后等王雷回来洗刷完毕上床之后，杜蒙再关灯上床。王雷是绝不愿意由他来关灯然后摸黑上床的，为此，他睡前甚至是不敢多喝水的，因为半夜起来上厕所不但要摸黑，还要面对卫生间里的镜子。如果说一个人无法克服绝对的黑暗所带来的无边的恐怖，那么他又如何敢面对半夜泛着冷光的镜子里自己聚集了这所有恐怖的双眼呢？王雷甚至想过把屋里的窗帘全都换成百叶窗，这样窗帘就再也不会随着窗缝里漏进来的风在墙上投下诡异的影子了。

      不过好在每天，太阳都照常升起。

      有时候两人睡前也会开个小小的卧谈会，一般话题都是由杜蒙挑起的，往常无非都是关于当天在那家超市看到了美女阿，或者在自习室有了艳遇阿之类的，这一天，杜蒙却讨论起期末考试来。
     “我说王雷，你们要靠几门阿？”
     “七八门吧，我也没数过。”
     “哦，那跟我差不多，我有七门，我都快被那些通选课烦死了，我以为就写写论文就完了呢，竟然也要考试！”
     “哦，加上那些啊，我可能有十门左右吧。”
     “……，靠。”
     “不过那些我都准备好了，不求高分，应该没问题的。”
      “……。那是，你老兄这么用工，肯定没问题啦。不过大哥，你最近也太用工了吧，睡一觉半夜再起来加班？大哥，知识是老师的，美梦是自己的，不用这么拼命吧，不就是几千块钱奖学金么？”
       “啊？什么意思？我这不是每天都和你一块睡的么？”
       “靠，你还装？！这几天你不一直和我同床异梦么？” 

        “啊？你说什么呢？我怎么听不懂？”

        “大哥，偷着学也不用跟我面前都装吧，咱俩也不一个系。你不是这两天每天半夜两三点的时候都起来再加加班么？”

        “！？没有啊！不怕你笑话，我半夜连厕所都不敢上，怎么可能起来再学习呢？再说我也犯不着阿！”王雷几乎急的要从被窝里坐起来了。

         “阿？没有啊，哦……”杜蒙扭头看了王雷一眼，迟疑了。

         “你说真的假的阿？阿？”王雷手里紧紧攥着被子，尽力压低声音问。

          “可能是我看错了吧？赫赫，肯定是这两天学习太刻苦了，半夜开始做噩梦了，做梦都梦到自习……不行，明天得抽空看个电影啥的，或者去打打球。”杜蒙开始自言自语起来。

          “……”

          “睡吧，明天还有答疑课。”

          “晚安……”

 

     很多2000级的学生都不能忘记那间12#楼的101宿舍，在新宿舍楼东头的那间一楼的宿舍。因为在最后一年的时候，那间屋里死了一个学生。

     这名学生是系里有名的学习的拼命三郎，据说他死的时候还在背单词准备GRE考试，桌子上还有他吐出来的血，浸红了半本书，倒在他脸上的白炽灯泡甚至烤焦了他额头的一块皮。死亡时间推断为半夜两点到三点左右，当时他的几个室友去网吧通宵了，否则也许不会这样。所有的学生都记得他的父母来的时候哭得有多么伤心。一个非常优秀的学生，校方后来说，可惜有心脏病史。

     他是累死的。

     很快，大部分学生都毕业了，除了少数留校读研和工作的。于是，101的悲剧就像就像被沙漠覆盖的楼兰文明一样被人们藏入了心底，只是偶尔向外弥散着一点焦黄的气味。

     新的学生开始入学，入住宿舍楼。12#改成了研究生宿舍，两人间，101被重新粉刷以备分配。随着新生陆续的报到，12#楼逐渐被塞满，由于研究生当中有几个本科就是在这里读的，并且还在１２＃住过，所以他们自然不愿意住在１０１房间。起初， 大家还不知道原因，可是这种事情哪会瞒得住，逐渐成了众人皆知的秘密。有几个人先后被分到了１０１房间，听说了这件事情之后，都强烈的要求换了出来。就这样，１０１一直空到了最后。后来来了个北方的男生，块头大，神经也大挑，根本没理这茬，更何况他来的时候也只剩下这间了，便拿了钥匙住进了１０１，稍稍运气的是挑了那张靠窗的床位。最后，一个很文弱的男生在极不情愿的情况下，被宿管的老师一边苦苦劝说一边强行的踹进了１０１，作了大块头的舍友。

　　大块头叫杜蒙，另一个叫王雷。杜蒙学的是管理,王雷是学数学的。之所以他们不是一个专业的，听说是学校为了学科交叉，但实际上大家都清楚，根本就是新楼不够住的，所以谁先来了谁先抢，自然没办法按院系分配。

     新的生活一开始，便被紧张的课程和没完没了的科研工作所充满，大家每天都忙得团团转，可是谁也没法忘记在12#楼的一楼，增经发生过的事情。学校方面自然是心中有数，于是特地将一层的廊灯全部换成了大功率的灯泡，而且夜间还未12#楼多安排了一班保安巡逻，就是为了让大家安心，毕竟，时间长了，在等这届学生毕业了，事情终将慢慢被淡化的。可是学校这些“特殊照顾”，反而使得住在楼里的学生越发觉得心虚，大家都尽量早点回宿舍，过了12点，也很少有人来一楼来串门了，这样，一楼的走廊，就更加显得寂静。就像野地里总会长出杂草，各种慎人的传闻开始从那寂静的走廊里飘出来，有人说，其实当初那个学生根本没有心脏病，你听说过心脏病发病的时候吐血的么？还有人说，当时有人发现死者在墙上用血画了一幅画，后来重新装修101时，校方想要刮掉那幅画的，可是发现血迹渗到了水泥里，怎么也弄不干净，只好刷了厚厚的一层粉盖住了事。更有甚者，声称自己曾在101隔壁的房间看到了隔墙上隐约也有那幅画，吓得隔壁的两个人接连两星期去学校要求换宿舍，后来被训了一顿终于老实了。但是也有人说是心脏病，但是当时给医院打过电话的，但是救护车到了学校门口，传达室的人非要求证件以及车辆登记，以至于耽误了时间。当然，这种说法未免有些调侃的意味，可是传闻却还有后半部分，证据是有次有个人放假回来到宿舍的时候半夜了，进12#楼的时候听到了很远的地方传来痛苦的呻吟声，并夹杂叨念着，证件证件……

     

 

 

 

 

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

很早以前增经因为为中医不平写过一篇博文，不过大抵想发牢骚一样讽刺了一下盲目反对中医的人，过过嘴瘾而已，没什么说服力，前些天听了百家讲坛的中医部分，其中郝万山和王新陆的几次讲解很有些科普价值，趁着我还没有忘记刚刚学来的那点中医的科普知识，就在这里赶快得瑟得瑟。

 

需要说明的是，百家讲坛的中医篇还有其他人讲解的历史上比较有名的中医人物，不过那几位因为不懂中医，在我看来也就是充充数，凑凑篇幅而已，讲了故事，却不能给听众留下什么中医的印象。后面郝万山和王新陆，确实是圈里人，不管他们在圈内的名声如何（没有任何贬义的猜测），他们的讲解都可以说是不错的。

 

我在他们的讲解中头一次比较清楚的明白了中医所讲的五行是怎么回事儿，阴阳是怎么回事儿，我想如果真的认真听一听这些理论的话，那些整日里叫嚣着要取消中医的人真的应该先好好思考一下然后在发表意见了。当然，阴阳五行这些理论与现代科学有些矛盾，因为你说茶叶是阴中之阴，那么阴是什么，阳又是什么，中医没法说清楚，金木水火土在体内对应什么？白血球还是红血球？中医说不出来，人体内看不到阴阳五行，所以让人很难信服。西医的优势是所有的来龙去脉都讲得清楚，从定义到推理，有逻辑有数据，所以容易让人接受。但是中医呢，什么是阴阳五行？不但在体内不能直接看到，而且估计中医体系中的定义也是模糊的，因为按照易中天的说法，中国古代做学问，并不是从定义开始的，这就与西方科学体系完全相悖了，现代科学体系的建立是从定义和假设开始，以逻辑推理来展开，再由实验验证的。所以如果以这个标准来看待中医，中医无疑有很大的伪科学嫌疑，至少是非常不规范的。但是，任何理论都是对真理的一种描述，使无限接近真理的，把真理作为一个数学空间的话，描述这个空间的方法有很多，却别在于选取的基不同，那么我们就可以看到，中医里所谓的阴阳五行，也许并不是指什么实体，而是这个理论要描述这个空间所需要的基，当然，中医目前所选取的基也许是不完备的，西医选取了另外的一套基——但是西医好像并没有总结出来他们的基是什么，按照我那点可怜的数学知识来看，不论采用哪套基，基的数量都是一样多的，可惜的是中医的基可能是不完备的，而西医根本没有这种表述，所以这也无从比较了。不过你要问我在现代科学体系中有没有类似的例子，就是用一些看到不到的指标来描述一个事物，那倒是很容易，大名鼎鼎的夸克理论用颜色来作为描述夸克的指标之一，但是这里的颜色却不是七彩，所以，如果我们不把五行傻乎乎的当成真的金木水火土，而是当作人体生命活动的五种重要特征，那么这就是极有道理的，而且可能是极为有效的，他可能不够完备，但是到目前为止，确实实用的。

 

中医的这种理论基础的出发点在于，直接把人体作为一个整体来进行研究，或者说是一个黑箱子来研究，我不管里面发生了什么，我只知道，针对各种输入，这个黑箱子的输出大概有五种特征，这边是阴阳五行。而西方医学是属于还原论的，就是把黑箱子拆开，看看里面究竟都有什么，研究透了，我们便可以预测一切结果。那种更好呢？这个很难讲，各有千秋，很容易接受的观点是，如果把每一个细节都搞清楚，便能掌握全局，而那种只管输出输入的做法确实偷懒的做法。这个观点其实是有问题的，据个很简单的例子，屋子里有个开关和电灯，中医的做法是按了两下，发现开关打开电灯亮，关上电灯灭，于是得到了阴阳两种状态，西医的做法则是把欧姆定律，电磁感应定律，电灯制造，电路铺设，发电机的设计全都搞清楚了，然后搞清楚了电灯开关的秘密。各位，那种好呢？尺有所短，寸有所长吧。

 

有时候细节太多了，未必是有助于对事物的理解的，如果开普勒继承的是十个第谷的观测数据，他还能总结出开普勒三大定律么？可能光是读完就需要毕生的精力吧。

 

而关于那些说中医没有药检，没有相关的疗效统计的说法，我想说，既然发现了这样的问题，为什么不去补救呢，为什么要因噎废食呢？疗效统计并不是难事儿啊，虽然中医师辩症施治，但是仍然可以统计被治疗的病人和未被治疗的病人康复的概率阿，这是很容易做的事情啊，那些谩骂者为什么不亲自做一下呢？还有人说中药只不过是没有提纯的西药，按照这个逻辑，食物也只不过是各种营养素的混合物吧，那么请问，你光吃蛋白粉维生素片能活多少年？

 

实话说，我既不了解中医也不了解西医，而且我看病的话大部分时候也都是选择西医的，但是我反对某些人处于很奇怪的心态反对中医的做法，当然，不是厨师一样可以对饭菜品头论足，但是如果你端着一盘生鱼片对饭店服务员大喊：你们的鱼怎么没做熟啊！！岂不是贻笑大方了。

 

 

 

最后，我很愤怒，前两周我累得吐血写了篇博文，双语都写好了，老长老长的国脚布，结果不知道出了什么毛病，就都没有了，气死我了！再次声明一下，我绝没有因为要写英文就开始偷懒，写了，丢了。这篇么，涉及中医，就不写英文了，呵呵！

After I came here, I have to cook by myself. But I do not have to much time for that, so all the food I cooked are not very complicated, like pork rips. You just need put it in the pot and waite. But it is not very easy to get pure pork rips here, some times you will also buy a thick pig skin on the pork rips by the way, which is a very good materiel for a very famous Chinese food, red-cooked pork.

 

So I have to learn how to do red-cooked pork, fortunately, I also like it very much, although there is a lot of fat on it and I don't like fat very much. When I was in China, I would go to a fast-food restaurant for eating red-cooked pork every week. I will never forget the smooth, delicious and sweet fantastic feeling.When you put a pice of red-cooked pork in your mouth, the magic smell brake the source on the surface of the meet and goes to your nose, oh! Your every musle will be relaxed by it. But every time I just can get very little meet, and it is alway not enough. Now I can do as much as I wish. Although the pork I cooked is not so nice as in the restaurant, it also tastes very good,at least better than the meet brick in mensa. But after I finished one half, I feel a little tired of it. Then I insiste on eating it for a little bit more until I do not want to see it again. Now, I feel the fat is everywhere in my body, every time I breath, I can feel that disgusting smell, and the smooth feeling in my mouth now became sticky feeling.Oh...

 

I just now, red-cooked pork is also a kind of fat, no matter how you cook it.

 

过来德国之后，就不得不考虑自己做饭，一来可以省钱，二来可以少受点西餐的折磨。但是时间实在是个问题，所以我只能尝试一些简单易做而又好吃的菜，比如炖排骨，你只要把骨头扔在锅里煮就行了。但是这边似乎没有排骨的概念，所以超市里有时能买到的排骨会带着一块厚厚的肉皮。

 

不过肉皮倒是做红烧肉的绝好原料，作为红烧肉的忠实粉丝，我自然不会让这块原料浪费。

 

在国内的时候我就经常去一家叫田老师红烧肉的快餐馆解馋。当你放一块红烧肉在嘴里，立即能感觉到那股浓郁的香味充满你的口腔，并且弥散到鼻子里让你真是的感受到它，然后那种滑腻的感觉让你不由得舔几下肉，立即略带甜味的酱汁就会彻底让你陶醉起来，浑身的肌肉都会开始放松，只有食道蠕动会加快，稍不留神，口水就会从嘴角流出来，太香啦~！可是每次一份红烧肉的量都太少了，让我总有种意尤为尽的遗憾。现在我自己做了，自然要让自己吃个尽兴。

 

当第一次试验成功的红烧肉出锅的时候，我简直忍不住抱着锅吃了。可是当我捧着碗吃到2/3的时候，我竟然感觉到有点腻了，在我又坚持着吃了几块之后，我竟然感觉有些恶心了，以至于不想再看到肥肉。那香味便成了肥肉的油腻味，爽滑的口感变成了肥肉粘在嘴里的感觉，至于甜味，渐渐开始变成了纯粹的酱油味……

 

我才意识到，红烧肉毕竟也是肥肉，不论你怎么处理它，脂肪最后也被吃到肚子里，一样要肝脏来帮忙消化掉，吃多了自然是受不了的……

 

Ich esse fleisch gernen.

Before I came here, I heard almost all the German people can speak a little english, and the students in the university are really good at that. I used to meat a German girl in China, her english is pretty good. So I thought I needn't to take any German course in China, especially I really didn't have time to do that.

 

But after I came here, I found some times it is really good that you can speak some German. So I took one intensive German course in the third week I came to Marburg. There are many classmates who have already been able to speak simple sentence in German in the class and the teacher tends to teach German with German. I have to see how other people are doing and guess what happened. In the first lesson, the teacher asked me how long I had stayed in Marburg, I said: drei weeks... everyone laughed, of course, I did not know how to say week in German at that time. I used to try to catch up with others, maybe I can, but some of them have already know many words before they went to the course, I feel I am always a little late after them and I am always the only person who can not understand the teacher very well. Maybe I am not stupid, but I do not think the teacher will take me as a good student. I feel I am bad.  

 

But it is also an interesting feeling and expeirence. In fact you won't really lose anything even if the teacher think you are a bad students, and as long as you try your best, you needn't to be afraid. Before that, I always worry about how other peoples commen me, it really make me feel tired sometimes. And now, I know there is a another attitude to deal with this, although I have not been very used to it.

 

Now the course has been finished, I didn't take the next level one, I do not have so much time. But I will miss it and miss every friend I met in that course. 

 

在我来德国之前，我就听说德国人普遍英语很好，大学生就更不用提了。加上我来之前在北京认识了一个德国的小姑娘，说一口流利的英语（她会说四国语言，据说英语是其中第二烂的，当时我那个汗啊……），所以我更加认为我是没必要再走之前拼命挤时间学德语的（加上英语还没说利索呢），也就发懒放弃了走之前突击一下德语的计划。

 

可是来了之后才发现，根本不是那么回事儿，这里的人确实都能白活几句英语，但是如果去超市买个醋都得问的话，那可太不方便了，而且同事们在一起的时候更倾向于说德语，虽然大多是时候人家很照顾我，聊完一段还给我用英语概括一下，但是总听总结陈词毕竟不是个办法啊，所以就想趁着有语言环境，报个班也洋货一把。结果人家大学里还没有针对我这种零基础的学前班，只好在成人教育学校找了个班报上了。（就这，也是同事好心为我报上的。）可是就算是在这个最基础的班里，我也是水平最低的，我想当初老师一定想当头疼。班里的其他同学都能用德语和老师诌两句，我就只能干瞪眼傻瞅着，加上老师是用德语教学的，在班上我就像一个小白一样经常茫然的看着向我提问的老师。唉！我还记得第一节课的时候，老师问我来了多长时间了，我说drei weeks，半晌差点没集体笑岔气。我算是结结实实的当了一回差生。我也想过奋发努力积极向上赶超墨西哥，乌克兰来的优等生，可是人家有些人本来就已经积累了大量的单词，平时又没啥正经工作，我这种天资平平的货色实在是心有余而力不足，最后只好安心当我的后进生。我想在老师心里，我大概也不算太差劲，但肯定算不上好吧！唉！

 

不过有时候想想，这种体验和经历也不错。我原本就很在乎别人的想法，导致自己时常活得很累，而老师对我的评价我更是视若圣旨，这么一折腾，我开始慢慢觉得，其实也就这么回事儿，她觉得你差劲，也不会让你损失什么，只要自己努力去做过了，对得起自己，那么也就可以了。

 

一个月后，课结束了，有事没时间天天下午去上课我没有再继续下一阶段的课程，但是我却开始有些想念在那里上课的感觉，有些想念班上的同学，虽然我不是一个优等生。

 

 

Ich bin kein gut Student,aber Ich gehe der Deutsch Kurs gern. Ich mochte Deutsch gut lernen, aber Ich habe keine Zeit.